Starting Over

It's been a year. One, long, year. A year since I lost motivation of working out and trying to lose weight. I will say that I'm impressed that I've only gained 10 pounds in a year, but it's not where I was hoping to be at this point in time and certainly not over 200 pounds. I told myself when I came back from Costa Rica last year (I weighed 192) that I would NEVER be over 200 pounds again. Of ocurse until I get preggers. I think back to the time when I first started and how motivated I was; I thought nothing could stop me and the weight would just come off! I'd be to my goal weight in no time! Then the brick wall smacked me in my face and I was stuck. I couldn't move. I just maintained. Only to a couple of months ago to where I stopped maintaining and just went back to old habits.

The funny thing is I noticed how confident I was in myself and how anti-depressed I was when I was working out and losing weight. I was ME! I was never thinking about what others thought of me because my self worth and esteem were through. the. roof! I could slowly feel myself get more sluggish and depressed...why would anyone put themselves through that?

It's time to kick this in the butt once and for all! No more feeling sorry for myself, no more pitty parties and depression. NO MORE DIET COKE! No more muffin tops and shopping in certain parts of the store! Time for cute sexy underwear and dancing around my apartment naked cuz I love the way that I look and damn proud of of it! (More sex with the husband because I feel more attractive! Can I get an AMEN?)

I'm starting over. I'm going back to making a daily calorie log and this will be just that! Keep me in check and accountable! I'll write down my weight and my daily weigh in's as well as what I'm eating and the calories. If I don't write a blog post one day, please someone yell at me no matter where you are from!

My goal for this month is to be back to 192 by December 1st. Ideally I want to be 185-180 by New Years Eve....That's a big goal! I have about 15 pounds to lose.....but I'm confident and think that I can do this. Tomorrow will be the official first day of logging in food but my husband is already headed to the gym so I need to go to! Until tomorrow...bye bye fat!